a very happy birthday to her

A very happy birthday to my sister....u are a grown up sister......

When she says she is okay now,will people believe it?

I told her that I am finally okay with the past but she said I am not and I felt like I got a reality slap on my face. Finally I admitted to myself that I am not totally okay but I am letting go of the past slowly...I am not that sad as before but I am still sad when the memories play in my brain like a movie. Kept on playing until I can feel like its my favourite movie.... I wish for a lot of things but I know in order for the wishes to be granted, I need to turn back time...

a short letter for her..

Hey you,

Please remember that I will always be around every single time you need me. It is okay to cry and it is okay to be vulnerable for once a while....I will not tell this in front of you as our relationship is not like that. We are not those people who show love and affection in front of each other. You may think that you are still the old person but NO, You had changed. You had changed to a stronger and matured person. You had changed into a person who takes time to think about the consequences.I am so proud of you.

Take as much time as u want to heal the wound. I will always be around to give you all the love and supports.

enough said,

i l o v e u

Penang again

*****second chapter from the previous entry*****

After the Hoh's puke chaos, we went to watch THIS IS IT *movie/documentary about late MJ*. The movie was a nice movie, too bad MJ died before the concert because all the preparation for the concert were superb!I bet all the fan were looking forward to that concert as most of the tickets were SOLD OUT and you would not wanna miss the concert but what to do, we cannot awake the dead....

Right after the movie, we went to Line Clear Nasi Kandar. As usual the place was packed with people. The best part was that after that puke incident, Hoh *bloody hell!* still wanna whacked the Nasi Kandar!

Look at the crowd in front of us! I don't know what so special about this Nasi Kandar!=.=!

We warned him to eat moderately, if not he has to walk back to the hotel. Paranoid wey, what if he puke again????but luckily he didn't puke on the way back to hotel. We didn't straight away go back to the hotel but we made few pit stops! The first pit stop was at the coconut stall. According to one of our friend who is local*Vincent*, he said the coconut taste superb! I tasted it, like normal coconut juice only....*phffft!!!*( I am not a coconut juice so who am I to comment about the taste right?) BUT I was amazed by that dude who cut the coconut. Super skilled!!!ZAS!ZAS!ZAS!wahhhhhh!!

Second pit stop was at the char kueh tiaw stall. A trip to Penang without eating char kueh tiaw will not be satisfying without a char kueh tiaw right? We waited for nearly an hour just for that char kueh tiaw.....Joseph kept on saying his Encik Taik wanna come out but we can't do anything as we had to wait for our order right so to Joseph's Encik Taik, you cannot come out! The last pit stop before we went back to the hotel was 7-11. According to them, in order to enjoy char kueh tiaw, you HAVE TO HAVE IT WITH BEERS!*what kind of nonsense is that?????*

Since the trip to Penang was without any itinerary, we ate the char kueh tiaw at Joe&Shun Yau's room while watching National Geographic *Surprisingly, I SELDOM watch this channel when I'm home* National Geographic was showing quite an interesting. It was about human organ sales in the black market! Learned few facts about human body...*felt the clever level increased a bit. hehe!*

Before we went for dinner, we went to the Car wash place since Des's car was contaminated*exaggeration mode* with Hoh's puke. While waiting for Des's car to be ready, we had drink at this one place called whatitsname! and Hoh belanja us. We were supposed to go to spa but it took quite some time at whatitsname! and by the time we reach hotel, we had to be ready to go for dinner.*sigh*

I looked so tanned in this picture! We were waiting for the car to be washed right before we went to whatitsname!

The dinner was great! We had crabs, prawns, fresh oysters, and the list goes on.....We went to the night market and Dd sprained her ankle. She was so busy looking at the purse until didn't realise the pavement was uneven!*tu ah!sebok tengok barang,tak tengok jalan!kan dah terjatuh!ahahahahahaha* We went back to the hotel after that and continue drinking at Joe&Shun Yau's room. This time we played cards and whoever lose, needs to drink. Luckily popo spirit was around me, I was lucky that night!*like I drink la kan.....*

Before we slept that night, Dd *with the high spirited talk* suggested we go to the beach since the next day was our last day there, me, Des and Hoh were just nod our head. I thought it was only a joke BUT NO! Des called around 7something *freaking* AM to wake us up for the morning beach walk! I woke Dd up but when she started talking alien language, I went down with Des alone. While he busy taking the scenery pictures, I walked along the beach. It was very relaxing and soothing feeling... I wish I can do that every single morning....aaaaaaaaaaaaa.....

Went back hotel room somewhere around 8something AM and continue sleeping zZzzzZZZzzz until 9something they woke us up again *this time Joe* for breakfast. Ate breakfast and after that all of us started packing up to check out. We went to Prangin Mall as the boys wanted to buy DVDs and after that we headed back to Ipoh. We tried the si konon famous iced coffee in Ipoh and all I can say, its not the coffee that I liked! too much milk!*nausea!*

the si konon Famous Iced Coffee!

Since we still got money left, we went to force ourselves eat hor fun at the famous chicken rice shop in Ipoh. Most of us forced ourselves to swallow the food and as for me, I wanted to cry cos I was so damn full! After the chicken rice, we still got money left! Divided among us and we bought ourselves the Ipoh biscuits. All of us ignored Kenny's suggestion to buy 2 whole SALTED CHICKENS!!!eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

At the chicken rice shop!look at the plate of taugeh!!bagi kambing makan, kambing tue gemok wey!!!!

That's all folks about Penang trip.

Total damages (petrol+toll+Parking+foods+liquors+hotel rooms) = RM 3500
Fun that we had = PRICELESS!

Penang

After all the obstacles about the company trip, all of us FINALLY reached to a decision! We are going to Penang for the company trip and spend all the money that had been budgeted for the company trip! Kenny had booked Flamingo By the Beach as our hotel and surprisingly that hotel is very nice. Didn't take any picture of the room but all I can say is that the hotel located in Tanjong Bungah is one of the nice hotel to stay and the price is quite affordable. Everyone was satisfied with the choice of hotel.

We supposed to start our journey at 6 AM but thanks to Shun Yau, we were behind the schedule. I had bet with everyone, whoever late is gonna pay for the breakfast but then do not have the heart to ask Shun Yau to pay for everything since the people at the shop kept on putting that freaking dim sums on the table of ours!!

Look at the table!!Some of it the waitress cleaned it up already.*sigh*this was only breakfast…

Scaryyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

After the breakfast, while waiting for Kenny and Joe packed their stuffs at the hotel, me, Des, Hoh and Dd went to have our first coffee of the day since the dim sum shop does not serve anything else besides tea! That was the first shop in my life which does not serve coffee! We had our coffee at Starbucks at some weird shopping complex somewhere in Ipoh. Why the hell I said it is weird? It because the freaking parking was so hard to access!! We had to go ALL THE WAY UP just to park! Felt like driving up Sungei Wang's parking lot*by the way, I was not the one who drove that day.hehe* But the Starbucks there was very NICE! Des mentioned that he wanted his Grande (medium in normal restaurant) latte in Venti size cup, I went pandai-pandai told the barista that he wanted that and TADAAAAAA! he got his grande size latte in a venti cup! Save money!!!

Continued the journey to Penang, I was damn sleepy but cannot sleep since I was sitting at the co-pilot seat while all of them at the back started to snore….. Thanks to Dd and Hoh for torturing me. T.T

The "BEST" part of the trip was, they had forced me to go to the island by ferry.*&(&%*(* I was so scared until my toes and fingers changed into blue colors! Not funny!) Even before I got into the ferry, made a phone call to her, asking her to wish me all the best and hope that I survived on that freaking scary ferry ride! The pictures I am about to show u, u must interpret that I was having fun but the TRUTH is- IT IS NOT FUN AT ALL!!!!

This was when the ferry starts moving! I was hanging on Kenny so hard

I tried to hide from des's camera lens but unfortunately failed!

This was when I had to follow Kenny to the edge of the ferry! Not funny at all!!

We reached Penang, we got to hang out in the hotel room for a while only until Kenny started to bug us to go eat since he damn hungry. He kept on telling us he wants us to go to this one bar at Batu Feringghi and chill by the beach side. We drag our tired asses and followed him to that place. Reached there, we changed place like a million times konon-konon nya wanna find the MOST suitable place for all of us. We ended up at the 90 degrees chairs. It was super uncomfortable wey!! No joke! After eating our lunch+dinner, we cannot take it anymore with the 90 degrees chair *I was super irritated until feels like punching people!* We hang out at Sunset Bar until 10-ish PM.

The chair was so straight! I hate that chair!! We were at Sunset Bar at this time. At this point, everyone was still sober.

This was when we moved to the table by the beach. Hoh met his bitch there. The dog seems in love with him…*ya la, he kept on feeding the dog wey*

Hoh was already drunk at this moment (according to him, he was 65% drunk..phffft!whatever!) We were playing truth&truth game until Kenny realized that this old drunkard *hoh* was recording our conversation! (&(%*& Kenny tried to grab hoh's phone and I was in the middle of the fight. Thanks to both of u!

Hoh was so drunk that night. We asked him his dad's name, and guess what his answer- NOT TELLING *while giggling* He kept on slapping people inside the car when we drove down from Batu Feringghi and the only person he listened that night was ME*aaaaaaaaa* u know why? Cos I threaten him, if he doesn't stop hitting people inside the car, I am so gonna hold his salary for next month! Gosh! He acted like a 5 years old kid. It was so funny and at the same time irritating! All of us who went for that trip knew who he admires…..*jeng jeng jeng*

The next day after breakfast, Kenny suggested all of us go watch "this is it" movie and all of us said okay! On the way to Queensbay Mall,

Hoh: des, drive carefully la. I feel like puking.

Des: Not my fault la. Kenny la.

All of a sudden, we heard Hoh winded down the window and a splash of thingy flying to the back car window. All of us *me, Des&Dd* were shocked. We stopped the car by the road side to let Hoh puke……….=.=! Hoh body reaction was super slow, we stopped drinking at 10 something the night before and he puked in the AFTERNOON the next day…do the maths guys. The funniest part was that, his face full of his own puke, he didn't bother as he took the tissue that I passed it to him and started to wipe the car.*faint* Dd kept on yelling at Hoh asked him to wipe his face and we were like "LEAVE THE F*CKING CAR ALONE!U WIPE YOUR FACE!"

Hoh's puke!!!! He himself didn't wanna touch his own puke. Asked Des to open the door from inside….T.T

To be continued……

some things are better left forgotten...

I have lost count on the number of days for this self-made therapy. During the weekend I went to Penang for the 8dge farewell trip or company trip. From now on, there will be no more 8dge except for its accounts that is currently handled by me. I had so much fun in Penang with them but I know it would be more fun if I go with my friends. Do not get me wrong as I am not saying they(8dge team) are not my friends but they had not existed yet when all those sweet and sad memories happened. It made me forgot about him for a moment as I do not allow myself thinking about him. As I am in KL again, I kept on holding on Agnes's words which "some things are better left forgotten"

Somehow what my lil sis said is true cos in order to be fine, let go of those memories and move on....

so currently still fighting over emotions.

p/s: will post the pictures at Penang in next post.

Her second day of therapy

Today is my second day of therapy...so far I am feeling okay, not fine but okay...if we go by percentage, i had let go 10% of him from myself. Hopefully, by the end of this therapy, I can let go 100%...

Ms stubborn is still around but she loosing up a bit now...

Her very first therapy

Today is my first day of my own therapy. What she said is true, he is no longer here to hurt me but I am the one who is hurting myself. About being scared to lose and not remember him at all will not happen..It is just I have to learn to let him go...I am in learning process. I have to do it cos if I don't do it, I will hurt myself again.

Ms Stubborn you are not needed in this therapy. I will call you back when I need you.

is she strong enough to do this?

When a person had been at a special place at your heart, it is difficult to let the person go...Sometimes when you are strong, you are willing to him go and move on. Sometimes you will wonder if you let him go, will the memories fade along with him? Why can't the brain just delete the memories by its own?

One of her best friend's wedding

I had known Ezzie Zakuan since I was 13 I guess. Became close when both of us were 18. We shared the same class for 2 AWESOME years!! There had been a lot of tears and laughter along the years. We had been in each other's live for 13 years now since 1996 till now. Our friendship grow strong each day and it is good to have him in my life.

Last week, He got married to his girlfriend that he is so stingy to show it to me BUT finally I met his wife during the wedding reception held in Subang yesterday. As usual I reached there quite late with my mom as he invited my mom along. He is one of the friends that I introduced to my mom and its an honored as he invited my mom along.=)

When I reached there, some of our friends still there and most of my friends "salam" my mom*they respect the elder.good!!!*Ezzie "The Kecoh Ketiak" introduced my mom to his mom when I had already did that at the entrance!! And the best part was MY MOM wanna lepak with my friends.=.=! Told her, cannot la ma, you need to send your lorry to wash, she with the cool attitude even tell me, its okay..not like you gonna meet them everyday right? Deep inside myself, U or ME ma???? Anyway, we didn't go hang out as almost everyone had made their own plan including MY MOM!!! so we went back home.

Reached back home, feeling super sleepy plus the weather was raining so grab a pillow and zzzzzz until it was almost 8pm..*kena Pukau la rasanya!ahahahaha!* I was supposed to meet up with another friend as he wanted to pass his wedding invitation to me but tak jadi. Dunno what happened to him....


This paragraph has nothing to do with Ezzie's wedding.I just wanna tell you one funny story told to me by my other bestie at Kuantan. Here how it goes;

012989xxxx(Lina)-Omg Babe!!Ada lagi orang pakai camera yang pakai filem tue. Aku nak gelak kat sini*OMG babe, there is someone still using the film camera. I wanna laugh!**its not lomo ok?=.=!*
012363xxxx(Me)-Hahahaha!kat hospital ker?tangkap gamba ape la?ahahahaha!*Hahahaha!At hospital? Take what picture la?ahahahaha*
012989xxxx-Hahahaha ye!kat lobi hospital ni. Tangkap gamba nenek dia kot.Hahahaha!Sumpah nak gelak.*ahahahaha yes. At the hospital lobby. Taking his/her grandmother picture la I think. I swear to you I wanna laugh*

This text message cracked me up when I read it!!! so much of techonology huh?ahahahahaha!!

so called unfortunated week

I had been observing my water meter inside WKN and I noticed that every time I stopped at the traffic light or caught in the jam, the water meter will increase. Told Kenny and Joe about that, according to them there must be something wrong with the water tank. It really worries me so much because when I stopped while waiting for the light to turn green yesterday, the indicator went up almost to the RED section.

This morning texted boss saying that I will be a bit late to the office cos I need to drop by the mechanic place to send WKN and ask him to check what is wrong with it and according to the mechanic, WKN's water pipe got leakage. Luckily it didn't cost much to repair it but I am sad, is it a sign for me to change WKN? I love WKN.... Thinking about changing it, tears start swelling in my eyes.....

too much memories between me and WKN....

Book Review

I had been reading few books since I started this blog. Some of the books are P.S I Love You by Cecelia Ahern and the Memory of Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards. Both of the books got its own movie. I have not watched Memory of Keeper's Daughter yet but I had watched P.S I Love You. In my opinion *I know I sounded like I am in an interview session but anyway.....* the book and the movie is quite different but still touching as when I was reading the book, I cried.*emotional*

Memory of Keeper's Daughter is about a Doctor who had to watch his sister died cos of Down Syndrome. From the book I found out that Down Syndrome related closely to heart disease (correct me if I'm wrong) because the doctor had to give away his daughter due to that sickness. This story took place in 1960ish so I think people those days do not have enough money to treat such disease and they have no other option other than put their kids in the facilities. This book basically about family values.

These 2 books touched me in two different ways....

p/s: I bought two new books yesterday after bought Sharon's tortoise pallets. Will tell you once I finish reading it;)

ONE wedding and MANY "lepaking"

All of these picture were taken while we were on the way to Pekan for the Groom's reception.

Last weekend I was in Kuantan for Nadia's wedding*her sister* I was in Kuantan since Thursday cos Agnes had to attend the rehearsal. The wedding was beautiful but I was extremely exhausted because I was not one of the guests but one of the "family members"*in the nice way la but in reality I was one of the Machai,babe jangan marah!ahahahaha!* I had to escort all the guests*some of them got weird attitude!!If it is my event, I will just scolded them!!!* to go inside the Hall and it was so tiring cos I had to run here and there in my freaking HIGH wedges!!! I think my calves now got muscles already due to the HIGH wedges torture! I have not gotten the pictures from Lina but once I do, I will post it here.

We reached back to KL on Sunday night AND on the next day*which was MONDAY* me and Agnes had to work!!!Gosh, I almost went blind because I was too sleepy. Mr Redbull less sugar and Nescafe Rich helped me to stay awake for the day. At night, Lina was in KL because on the next day she got conference at Sunway so starting from Thursday (8/10/09) till Wednesday (14/10/09) I didn't get enough sleep. How la to get enough sleep if I only reach home at 12am???? and thanks to all the Mr Mosquitoes I can't have proper sleep...

Hoping that tonight I can sleep well....

Her very first......

faith

TATTOO!!!

I am so excited for this new addition!!!!Got it 2 weeks before raya so it had been with me for almost ONE MONTH...hehe! I would like to considered it as a Graduation Present for myself... A tattoo for all the years of studying.....Now I am considering for a second one, still thinking on the art...

i l o v e i t =)

away...

Currently I am in Kuantan, helping out Lina for her sister's wedding. Going back tonight since tomorrow working. There are a lot of stories to tell!!! but for now, MACAI MODE....

Taken from her blog. First post of survey...

1. what time you get up this morning? 915am? *yah, it was late. i need to do office hunting and that place that I need to go uses Federal Highway. I will go nuts if I went out early in the morning just now*

2. what was the last film you saw at the cinema? UP!*Mr Ferderick,Russel, Dug and Kevin....*

3. what is your favourite TV show? For now, this chinese drama series airing in channel 311(wah lai toi) * I know!Do not be shocked babe.hahahaha!*

4. what do you usually have for breakfast? During Fasting Month, Bread and coffee.

5. what is your favourite dessert? Chocolate fondue*aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh*

6. what is your favourite CD at the moment? My "own" compilation of songs *MJ, Javier, PCD, BEP, SOKO, LILY ALLEN*

7. what kind of car do you drive? WKN *Green Iswara*

8. favourite sandwich? Turkey Ham

9. what characteristics do you despise? Two-faced People!!!

10. favourite brand of clothing? Anything that can fit me and the price is not ridiculous

11. favourite perfume? I am so poor.no perfume for me...

12. where would you retire? Somewhere peaceful...

13. what was your most recent memorable birthday? 2007,when all of them were there at Portugese Settlement.

14. favourite sport to watch? Football *although I have no favorite team*

15. furthest place you are sending this? somewhere around the globe?

16. person you expect to reply back first? Lina!!!

17. when is your birthday? First quarter of 2010

18. are you a morning or a night person? Definitely NIGHT!!

19. any new & exciting news you'd like to share? yup but not in this post.

20. what did you want to be when you were little? A Taukeh

21. how are you today? Lazy*yawn*

22. what is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? End of the year as me and her had planning for a holiday trip *weeeeeeeeeeee!!*

23. what is your full name? Audrey Lee Choi Hoong *a mouthful right?*

24. what are you listening to right now? Talentime soundtrack-Just One Boy to be exact by Aizat

25. what was the last thing you ate? Rice with Asam Steam fish

26. do you wish on stars? Always

27. if you were a crayon, what colour you be? Purple

28. the first person u texted on the phone today- Maxis telling me my accumulated points

29. favourite soft drink - Coke

30. favourite restaurant - A lot!!!Different restaurant have different specialty.

31. what was your favourite toy as a child? - How can I remembered when I barely remembered the last week's event?

32. summer or winter - A mixed weather of both.

33. hug or kisses - Both

34. do you want you friends to reply back - Erk, up to them la kan?=)

35. when was the last time you cried -Nearly a month ago

36. what did you do last night - Watch that chinese drama series and read the book before I went to sleep

37. how many keys on your key ring - Lost count

38. favourite sound - the sound of the wind

39. favourite day of the week - Friday!! as I know the next day is weekend. Weekend means rest and enjoying my life without having to feel stress about work!!

40. do you make friends easily - Yup but hard to stick to them unless we have the similar attitude.

41. how many people will you send this to - How to send la?

42. how many people will respond -How to get respond when I do not know how to send?

Happy Independence Day Malaysia!

Yesterday, Malaysia had been independent for 52 years. A lot of changes had happened during that duration of time. We, as Malaysian had gone through a lot of changes and I am proud to say that I AM Malaysian!! One Malaysia! Hopefully all Malaysian out there feel the same way as me=)

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On last Friday, after lunch to be precise I just remembered that I had a cupcake order from Dd. Luckily Sharon was back at home for the Merdeka holiday to help me with the order. She baked the cupcakes and waited for me to come home to decorate the cupcakes. *I'll post the pictures later ya;)* On Friday night itself, me and Agnes went down to Bangsar to the COD and after that we hang out with Put at Starbucks talked about the working stuffs and some shocking news that happening around the world. One of the news was the lady that had been kidnapped for 18years and bore 2 out of wedlock little girls whose the daddy is the kidnapper!!Just imagine that, that the kidnapper even married and I do not understand how come the wife can just kept quite for all these time. Some people are just not independence yet I guess.... How can people be so cruel? and the best part of the news was the kidnapper got caught while he was on the way to distribute pamphlet about religion?*faint*

On Saturday, Agnes kept on persuading me to go down to Malacca but the thing was I had an order from Nareez. Faced one not so nice incident that spoilt my mood the whole day until it had affected my cookies quality*phfffttt* but then after COD somewhere around KLCC area, went to KLCC with Mama,Sharon and Boboy to buy the bag from ZARA that I've been wanting it since last month:P!!Luckily it was still there,*pheww*Bought that and Sharon asked me one Pokai question, "Codie, Belanja Sharon sepasang Everlast....."*Codie(my nickname), buy me a pair of Everlast(Shoes)" and being me, okay la.... We went to Everlast, like one pair of shoes but there is no size for me*I need a pair of new shoes as well ok!" plus there nothing interest us so we went to Converse. Bought 2 pairs of shoes,One for me and another one for Sharon. I like Sharon's one but no size!!I got a pair of Babarian size of leg ok!!! At first I took Size US 7*perasan la kan* but then when we went back home to try it, my new shoes look like it gonna burst! as I always bought size US 8 *tu la perasan sangat la kan!!!* so the next day we went again to Converse to exchange for US 8. Bought myself a new book,weeeeeeeeeee!!been wanting to buy that book for a long time. Its title is "The Memory Keeper's Daughter" by Kim Edwards. Click here to read the synopsis.

Till then,

Back to my new book
p/s: Babe, I know you are proud of my new hobby right?hehe

Pisces-the piece of ass

Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very high ### appeal. Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to keep. Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way. Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

This was the result when I did one of the quiz in the facebook. It made my day. I was so fu*king pissed just now when I spoke to the person in charge in Malacca. I do not understand why she*not the one who spoke to me just now.She is another woman that I had a fight last week* need to ask me with ridiculous question,the question was "what are you going to do with the payment?" OMG!!!!*puke blood* Do every supplier needs to explain himself/herself when ask for pending payment?seriously???!! I wanted to faint again if I need to call her again and ask about the pending payment.

p.i.s.s.e.d!

UP!!up and away!!!!!!!!!

Last Friday, went to watch UP at cineleisure with Agnes and her officemate. I am not gonna tell you about the movie as I know many of you have not got the opportunity*assumed EVERYONE as excited as me to watch this movie* to watch it yet. Please watch this movie as it got a lot of morale&sweet/romantic stories and some of funny scenes! For those into animation, do watch this movie and tell me about your opinion bout this movie.

My opinion for this movie?

I LOVE IT!!!am gonna watch it again with my officemates as they*Des and Hoh* kept on cursing me on that Friday night and bet that I will FFK*break my promise* to watch it with them! Wait and see la this coming Thursday!!

wrong move!

I had been coughing for more than 2 weeks now.. Yesterday I had reached my limit of patience towards this sickness. At first I took one tablespoon of cough syrup but then it didn't reduce my coughing so I took another tablespoon of that cough syrup and surprisingly my cough reduced but as for today THANKS to that 2 tablespoons of cough syrup, I got headache and shaky!! I feel like there a a group of elephants inside my head keeps on stomping and I could not stop shaking!!!

I took that extra dosage due to the incident I had last night while I was buying stationeries for the office. Since I could not stop coughing, I had scared away the salesman! He even told me that he thought that I got H1N1 cos I was coughing!I was so offended at that time but to think about it, everyone is currently freaking out about that deadly virus and I was not wearing mask that time because:

1) Went to Watson-Summit to find mask and hand sanitizer=SOLD OUT
2) Went to Guardian-Summit, found the hand sanitizer but mask= SOLD OUT
3) Wanted to take from production site but no one went there as I do not have the authority to go there. sigh~

so at the end of the day, I didn't have a mask until today.

The officemate that scared us all yesterday went to see doctor. She got her result,-ve H1N1 but she is on MC today. I agreed that I had treated her like shit yesterday but I have the right *as same as the salesman!T_T* to be scared as it is not a normal virus *ingat demam campak ker?!* One of my officemate even wrote a note to her saying

"PLEASE SAVE OUR LIVE!GO HOME"

but it didn't make her go home. She stayed until 6pm but as long as the result came out -ve,it is okay....

a scenario that now seldom shown in the public

While I was waiting for for the traffic light to turn green yesterday, from my rear mirror I can see the car behind me. Inside the car there was a couple and like me they are waiting for the light to turn green. At first I only saw a couple talking to each other while the lady was checking on her lips but the scenario became worse when I saw the man was trying to HIT the woman! Luckily the woman auto-reflex was fast, she got the chance to stop the man from hitting her. I was so shocked as I continue looking at the 'Drama" early in the morning, they are still talking to each other where at this point I found out they were actually arguing with each other! The woman kept on checking on her lips where my assumption was she got hit before this that is why she can stop the man on time while he was trying to hit him "again?"*not sure*

There are still men like this in this modern life is it? Why with all the violence? Can't anything be solved without involving violence?

I can say that my life gonna be interesting for this week.


Yesterday I found out our office receptionist's daughter got infected with H1N1 virus so today she self quarantine herself. There is someone else got a direct connection with a person that is having H1N1 virus but she is in this freaking BUILDING!!!Yesterday I had asked her not to come to work as she needs to be quarantine for 7 days but she didn't wanna listen. I do not understand what is so important about work until she has to jepordise other people's lives? seriously!!!! It is not stubborn anymore, I would like to call it STUPIDITY as she knows that this virus is no joke! I think she is more smart than me as she is older and as a MANAGER she should know about the dangerous about this virus!!! I have no words for her act anymore. Although she's not working directly with me but she is in the same freaking building with me and that scares me wey!!! Currently heard from people downstairs she went to the factory behind for a meeting. Selfish man!!!seriously!!!she's spreading the virus to the whole plant wey!!!!

p i s s e d o f f w i t h s e l f i s h b i t c h !

sick

This the second time I'm having fever for the month. Tired of getting sick. What should I do ya to avoid getting sick AGAIN?




This song brought tears into my eyes again...if i can turn back time i wanna go back to those happy times.....

Finally!After a year of waiting....

Finally!!!!I attended my Convocation last Sunday!!!Congratulations to me and Agnes!!!*preeeeeeeetttt* It was a super HOT and SUNNY day but it was a FUN day too!! I managed to meet up with few of my friends and we didn't take any pictures due to the HOT and SUNNY day! It was also the day I left my phone in the car!How can you forgot to bring your phone to your own convocation?!damn!!I was keep on walking around to look for my family and lina until when I almost give up searching, I saw them at the spot that I've been like 4-5 times! That one also cos I heard Lina calling my name. Luckily I was not deaf that time. haish!

This is before I took off my robe. A family picture taken by Lina.

Sexy leg.ahaha!

Seriously, it was a hot day. thanks for coming all the way from Kuantan babe=)

This is the only group picture we had during the whole day minus Duan. Duan was not there when the picture was taken. Ijot also reached Cyberjaya quite late and we got to meet her for a short period of time only. she can DRIVE!!!such a improvement for her!

This is taken on Saturday at our usual hang out place. I like this picture. dunno when she will come down again to KL.

counting the days.

when kuantan and KL is only 3 hours journey

Last two weeks, she came down to KL to hang out with us...I know all this while, she is the only one that gone through all the hassle just to hang out with us.*i'm sorry babe for being a bad and insensitive friend.hehe* This picture was taken when we*me,agnes and her* finished doing shopping at One Utama for our*me and agnes* convocation. We went to hang out with Nisa as she also one the person that we need to make a appointment a month before meeting her cos she got lotsa of things and plans!!phffff!!! I love this picture above cos SHE is smiling!

Agnes looked retard rite?ahahaha!!

After finished updating ourselves with lina's story,its time for cam whoring*not so whoring pon as all of us were tired....*we were at Old Town until it was about to close and Nisa had to make a move since it was quite late that time. Miss that moment. Can't wait for another session!!!

the day that she found out that they are too much!!

Last night while I was having dinner with my officemates, Lina called with a sad voice. I have to ask her to call me back as during that time, I was arguing with one of my officemate.*he was in the "bitch" mode. He screwed all of us left,right and center man!* Around 15 minutes later, she called back. She told me that he had had a discussion with the sisters*family meeting I would to call it* According to her, the discussion had reach a conclusion whereby the sisters need to say sorry and he kept on saying sorry to her. He told her not to worry so much and he promised everything will go back to normal.

I find this situation funny actually. Your sisters can drag a total stranger*not a total stranger actually cos she's being friend with the sister and brother in law* into your family problem then all you can do is say sorry and even tell that stranger not to worry as things will go back to normal. Excuse me sir, do you think my best friend's brain is a freaking HARD DISK?! Do you think that she has the ability to "REBOOT" her brain if she's being hurt like this by your family? Seriously?!!!

I still cannot understand what in the name of Jesus Christ*as I am a Christian myself* you*yes YOU!* can keep on judging my best friend based on her race without fail?! and do you really know what is the meaning of FRIENDSHIP?Let me help you with that.

"What is a friend? A single soul, dwelling in two bodies" - Aristotle.

-Friendship is a feeling of comfort and emotional safety with a person. It is when you do not have to weigh your thoughts and measure words, before keeping it forth before your friend. It is when someone knows you better than yourself and assures to be your side in every emotional crisis. It is when you can sleep fighting and get another morning with a better understanding. Friendship is much beyond roaming together and sharing good moments, it is when someone comes to rescue you from the worst phase of life. Friendship is eternal.

taken from here http://festivals.iloveindia.com/friendship-day/friendship-meaning.html

I understand when they said that she's not part of their family. It was so heartbroken to her. Pity her...She had been a good friend to both of the husband and wife and all the wife can come with was she not part of the family. I think you can be friends with anyone despite their RACE, RELIGION or BLOOD RELATIONS!!

We as a normal human being be friends with another human being without having to judge what races they are. We as human being that has a religion, do not condemn other person's religion unless ajaran sesat and I can bet with you, there is no one religion tells and teach the people to judge and condemn other person's religion. If there is one, please correct me.

I.H.A.T.E.R.A.C.I.S.M

p/s:sorry if I did offended anyone. I just need to let it out from my system.

when we are still living in denial....

I think I will never accept the fact that some people have the stupid mentality about races and religion. Why there are still such people like this? We are living in a modern world right now, what is wrong about being friends with different races? My best friends are malays and MOST of my friends are MALAYS!! Is there any problem? I can't see there any problem with it or is there really a problem where I am too naive to notice it?

I do not understand whereby why these kind of people who are racist look at other races differently. When ME as a CHINESE and my best friends as MALAYS bleed, our blood are the same colour. Are our blood have different shade of color which I can't see it or notice it before? Can you *racist* people see that your blood is different colour with other races*I think you*racist people* have bionic eyes man if you can see the difference!*? Is your blood is more holy compared to other races? Are you guaranteed by your God*Jesus Christ,Allah,Tao* that you got a place in heaven and will be sitting next to the Almighty? Can you racist people*I need only one* answer me these questions please?

Seriously, I can't understand what's on their mind.....

a trip to melaka

The bride and groom of the day

I spent my weekend in Malacca as my Boss getting married during the weekend. At first I wanted to go there by bus cos Agnes wanna tag along although there was still space inside the car but Hoh made such a big fuss saying that since Agnes's office was quarantine due to the H1N1 virus, she cannot be in the same car with him*&%$#*. That night sent a message to dD saying that I am going to Malacca by bus with Agnes and we gonna meet them there but then dD said we can car pooled with them.*yeay* At the end, we sat in the car with the paranoid uncle!aahahahahah!!!

Started journey at 11am as we had breakfast together while waiting for dD but at the end we didn't go with dD cos she needs to pick up one of the other friend that had trouble with his car. We reached Melaka around 1pm and text Kenny that all of us gonna go for satay at town area but he insisted we go to Boss's house as there was a luncheon but me and Des's attire were not appropriate for that luncheon. We can't go to the luncheon just wearing singlet and shorts righ?Told Kenny that and we headed to eat "hainanese food"*pork satay*. The Boys ordered 40 pork satay and 20 chicken satay and they finished all!!With several sticks of satay*mine was chicken* we went to check in at hotel and had a quick bath, all of us went to Dataran Pahlawan but guess what the parking was closed cos it was FULL!*argh!!!* Des who was already so stressed out about one-way Malacca road, we went to have cendol at Jonker street to cool everyone down. We went to 2 different shops just to eat cendol since it was such a BIG dissapointment for all of us when the first shop's cendols were not nice.too much of coconut milk!*yuck*

When we were in the second shop, all of us enjoyed the cendol very much especially HOH!!He ate 2 bowls of cendol and one bowl of Baba Nyonya Laksa!*the gap between the Pork Satay and the cendol+laksa was only 1 hour!* We went for a visit around Jonker Street. dD and Venus bought rings for themselves and as for me, I didn't buy anything as I just went for a walk around Jonker street remembering this was the place that I used to go when me and my friends were still in Malacca.*missed that moments*

Around 530pm, all of us made our moves to the hotel as we need to prepare ourself for tonight's dinner. *eating session for Hoh AGAIN!* Since I travelled light, I got no clothes to wear for the next day and I forgot to bring my undies so meet up with Agnes and went to Dataran Pahlawan to do a very QUICK shopping! Luckily when we reached there, the parking was open so parked Syah's car, and straight went to MNG and I ended up buying one T-shirt that I regret the next day cos its quite big and I looked hideous in it!*should had bought one size smaller.phffff!**If I tell lina this, surely she said "u slalu camni tau!(u always like this)* When we were on our way to hotel, dD called as it was already 645pm and I was still on the road. I took a quick bath and Agnes helped me out with the make-up*its just eye mascara,nothing more okay*

When I was getting ready, Hoh came into the room and I had the shocked of my life. Never seen Hoh in a proper attire, he looked well groomed! His face was blushing when I told him that he looked handsome that night. Didn't have the time for cock chatting, we were rushing to the ballroom as at that time I felt really guilty cos I had made the boys waiting for me....

but.....

All the guilty feeling vanished as I stepped into the ballroom cos most of the guest were still outside the ballroom chatting with each other *phewwww*

Joan brought us *me and the boys* into one ballroom and we saw one huge BLUE color MONSTER and one huge PINK color MONSTER!!! the BLUE monster had not wear his pants yet and the PINK monster was still struggling to put on her wedding gown!!*lol*yup guys, these 2 monsters are MR MAMEE MONSTER and MRS MAMEE MONSTER!!! Helped out with the clothing and took few pictures with these two "bride and groom"(the real bride and groom were laughing at the monsters!)

Since I helped out with the Monsters, I was late to go into the ballroom so I have to wait up for the REAL bride and groom went into the ballroom and then only I can go in.Went into the ballroom and found my seating. I was so bored during this one period cos the singer was singing some french songs. As I do not understand French language, I texted Agnes and Lina due to the boring singer~

The best time during the whole night was the "Yam Seng"*drinking* Session. Our table is the only table that did Yam Seng a lot of time and was the loudest inside the ballroom. A lot of things and incident happened during that night and I think here is not a appropriate place to tell all the story. Like my new boss said, "what happened in Renaissance, stays in Renaissance" hehe! Here are some pictures that Des took during the trip:

Was at the first shop eating that badly tasted cendol!!!!

Believe it or not, Hoh*the dude next top me* ate THREE bowls of cendols and one bowl of baba nyonya laksa!!!

After cendol, we had our own "vain" moment. The weather was super hot that time and at that moment I wished I was bald cos it was super HOT!!!!

This bowl of Baba Nyonya laksa was ordered by Hoh. Des teased him saying this might be his "last meal"ahahahahahaha!!! It looks good right?

I just like this picture.It has the "historical" vibe.=)

This was when I texted Agnes and Lina. Stressed out right? Try to sit near the speaker and listen to the French song when you don't understand the language?!

Still texting them. Didnt realise Des took pictures of us busy texting people!ahahaha!

After the food serving ended, they started to "yam seng" and being me who can't drink my face were all red and my body started to itch! keep on scratching and scratching!!!

We didn't get our dessert during the dinner cos our table was so busy yam seng-ing so thanks to Joe, we had our dessert, macadamian nuts ice cream! It was super hard so I tried to lick it to make it melt but end up numbing my tongue as the ice cream was super COLD!!!!

I was still busy licking the ice-cream.ahahahaha!!at this time I could not feel my tongue no more....

We were so busy taking picture during that night and all I can tell you I was having a good time during the dinner=)

The night continues with the karaoke session outside the ballroom.luckily it was dark...OMG!!!so much thing happened during that session. Its not appropriate to tell it here.=)

Till then,

*mwah*

a dress for boss's wedding

Last week story-weekdays
Got a lot of shits to do in the office until I had abandon this blog. A lot of shits happened and SOCSO PJ is my new favourite place to go!!within this 2 weeks I had been in the SOCSO Office several time and as usual I have a very bad impression towards goverment bodies*sorry for those who works with the government if you guys feel offended wit this phrase* maybe it is just the staffs that I've met that have gave me wrong impression. It seems that goverment workers *those makcik-makcik(aunties)* got a lot of time to spare. They can talk*gossiping* with each other for hours at the lounge area without feeling guilty for not picking up the ringing phone.*no wonder la everytime I called Government bodies,there is no one I can talk to cos my calls were ignored by them*

weekend story
I had to go to Batu Pahat last Friday cos I was involved in one of the company event. I stayed in a freaking scary hotel. the sales rep from Batu Pahat rented the hotel cos that was the only hotel that can occupy the whole team*we need 25 rooms for all of us*.
WHY IT WAS SCARRYYYY?! the answers are :
1)the hotel is a cheap hotel(minor reason),
2)the bed linen was dirty(still minor reason),
3)Prostit*te go in and out from the hotel(MAJOR reason!) AND we can see weird people *MALE* were with that *client servicing* girls!!! They even stayed in front of our room!!!scary weyyy!!!

There was this one time, me, Joan and Joe went back to the hotel to release ourself and when all of us done, Joe passed by this one room(which was 2 rooms next to us),he heard "weird" noise.He told us and when we passed by, we heard one mandirin sentence and when you translated it means "Please be polite" ended with M*aning sound!3 of us ran to the lift and kept on pressing the lift button *as if our action can make the lift operates faster* 3 of us got into the lift and went to the field and basically told everyone! at night before we went to sleep, me and Joan heard m*aning sound and we were like looking at each other and giggled*not because of excited,it was because one of our roomate was actually snoring at the same time but the snore was being defeated by the m*aning!*scary weeeeyyyyy!!I swear I do not wanna let the sales rep do the booking for us.Gonna ask Kenny or other people to do the booking.
I wonder do they ever change the bed linen?*PUKE!*

Lunch story(today)

I got a message from the receptionist saying that a person named Agnes called,looking for me. I was so shocked since I never give this *Crazy* sister my office number. Checked my handphone I got 4 missed called from her number*sorry Agnes,your big sister is deaf*!Returned her call back and she told me her whole office is being quarantine for 1 whole week cos 1 of the people there is H1N1 POSITIVE!!!she called just to ask whether our house got internet or not*btw, I have not been blogging for a while cos there is not enough time in the office and my hard disk at home crashed so cannot online.sigh* I AM JEALOUS!!!!i want to work from home too!!!!*since there are so many things to do* I am so proud of Agnes cos she googled my office number!clever sister! Told the office that Agnes's office had to be quarantine due to H1N1 and all of a sudden everyone scared somemore ask me to send my sister to hotel!ahahahahahaha!!*saba jer la aku*

After work story(today)

Just came back from pyramid with Joan and Ann as we went there with a purpose. I need to find a dress for boss's wedding since I have nothing to wear this weekend. Agnes and Awin joined us there and helped me out with the dress hunting.I had my eye on this one long shirt but cannot buy it cos it is out of budget.*sigh* I ended up with this flowery dress with white background as BLACK is not allowed for the wedding>.<

till then,

good night*yawning*

it's bad...

As I was driving home yesterday,his smiley face suddenly appeared in my mind...His birthday is coming soon, all of a sudden, I miss him so much especially his smile. Can you please smile for me once again,please?

Text her straight away. Her first reply brought me to tears. I will try to be strong for you babe...She told me in order for me to be ok is to let him go but that is the hardest thing to do...To let all the memories go is like letting everything go...I am not ready to let him go although I know he already let me go. I am the only one who's holding on to it...I am afraid to let him go as letting him go, I am afraid I will totally forget about him which I do not want to do it...

Every single time when I drive on the road, I wish that I bump into him so that I can see his face although I do not know whether I am strong enough to look at it or not...Every single time I go to this place, I wish that I can bump into him doing shopping with his family so that I can look at his face and his happy little family...I know I am being stupid but that is what love does. Love will make people feel miserable, love makes people do stupid actions and wishes.

To him,

I miss your smile
I miss your smell
I miss your touch
I miss your lips
I miss your laughter
I miss those crazy things I did with you
The most important thing
I MISS YOU.

I regret for not telling you that I love you and I regret for not telling you to stay with me...

Can you please smile for me again? All I need is just one smile from you.That's all I am asking for...

it's a gloomy day

Since last week, my antibody is very weak.currently i'm having sinus attack, from a clear mucus now its greenish*cendol color*. I think there is an infection in my nose and i'm having sore throat and cough due to a very bad sinus attack*hopefully it is not H1N1* I had not visit the doctor yet as I know its gonna be such a hassle to go to the clinic. have to wait cos there are lots of people go there. Hopefully i will better before the weekend cos it is Fer's wedding. I don't want to meet my friends like this.haish!

happy birthday bestie!

012363xxxx(09:45:10am 01/07/09)-every year i'm trying my best 2b d 1st but failed miserably...Happy birthday babe...i luv you.
012989xxxx(09:47:10am 01/07/09)-hahaha thanks. this year even worse!but i still luv u.

This morning I just realised today is my bestie's birthday and guess what I forgot to wish her!*bad friend!sigh!* Happy Birthday babe!!

Dear bestie,

I am so glad to be your friend. you indeed is a very good friend...you were there most of the time when i needed someone and lend your shoulder to cry on. we had our own laughter and tears. although we are not always together all the time but i feel you so close to me. you have your own place in my heart and life. again, i am so glad to be your best friend and i am really sorry for hurting you. it was not my intention to hurt you and i'm really sorry for that...happy birthday babe...may this year brings more laughter compared to tears. i love you babe!!

yours truly,

your best friend.

&*^$&*^

Thursday-180609

felt very cold in the office. were skyping and yming lina and put telling them gonna fall sick cos the whole body was burning but hands were cold as ice plus got tummy ache... tried to go toilet but encik taik*poop* didn't come out.

7pm

Drove back home feeling super sick.tummy really hurt,reached home, Agnes was at home. She didn't go to work that day. Went to clinic with her and mama. Have to wait for 1 1/2 hour cos the clinic was FULL of SICK PEOPLE!*why la I have to be sick when the clinic is full?*
While waiting for the doctor, slept in the car cos tummy hurt badly. Agnes woke me up when it was my turn and had the doctor examined me. Doctor told me that my Gall Bladder got irritation so asked me to diet. SCARYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

Today-220609

My tummy ok a bit. eyes still yellowish. Doc told me that I have to go meet him again if eyes still yellowish and still got tummy ache. Lazy to go. Let it be first. If it getting more serious like last Thursday, then I'm gonna pay him a visit.=)


O U C H

Boring day

It is a boring day cos I don't have anything to do besides playing my Restaurant City in Facebook and try to take out the corn at my right palm. I got 3 corns*according to my officemate,it is corn* ya at my right palm. What is the cause of this irritating and annoying hard skin? Feeling embarrassed to shake hand with people,scared that particular person can feel the hard skin!*tak nak la,maluuuu!*

I'm trying so hard to take out this annoying thing on my palm by using the corn remover*scholl* that is meant for foot since I could not find the one that meant for palm/hand.Am I weird cos usually people get it on the foot not the hand?I am not using my hand to walk but how can I get it?

It all started on a very bright and sunny day....

Went to help out one of my friend do gardening. It was my first time and I didn't know that I had to dig up a hole and put black soil to replace the existing soil. The existing soil cannot be used to plant the flowers so had to throw it away.OMG!!!the existing soil were so hard*seriously, felt like digging cement* to dig plus it got red ants that bite your leg!!T_T I was so determine to dig up the ground until when I finished digging the ground, I noticed that my hand got blisters!!

and now as of TODAY!!

the blisters had harden and it is at my right palm. the skin is harden now.damn!!wanted to show it here but no camera.haish!

By the way, while i'm composing this post, I did some reseach and thanks to Mr GOOGLE, I think this thing on my right palm is not corn la but Calluses which is similar like corn but its not painful. After I did some comparison, I think it is CALLUSES since it is not painful,just some hard skin. Gonna go to gurdian or watson to buy medication to get rid of this thing!

alone

Can I be alone?

Living alone without any friends?

Eat alone without workmates?

Today I felt like a stranger in someone's life cos I do not know what is going on with the life. How I wish I can make a name list and crossed out the names that I do not want to be friends with. Before this I think I can do it but as time goes,as age is catching up with my act, I don't think so I can do it anymore....Sometimes people are just annoying but I did not run away.Is it because I am scared not to have friends anymore in my life or is it because I have to be nice to them because I am scared they will talk bad behind my back?
Neither of these 2 reasons I guess.
Its because I just wanna be friends with them and didn't expect that they are weird. SH*T!

Phase 1

During the weekend, I spent my time with Put to go and find for the available locations. We went to several places and end up at Tim's place. We had this discussion with Tim and found out that the operation cost is so HIGH!!!Do not know whether we can survive for the future or not.....
Its all about Budgetting, Costing and revenue...


Tired of thinking

seem happy and being happy is never the same

seems happy and being happy are 2 different things. you can always seems happy in front of everyone around you but to be happy is difficult as yourself is the only one that know that you are being happy and not seems happy.

seems happy is when you laugh and smile with your friends or stranger that you just met but ask yourself a question whether you are being happy to hang out with the crowd?

everyone can see that you seems happy with your loved one but do they know that you are really happy to be surrounded by your loved ones?

is everyone has the same opportunity to find their other half cos sometimes they will never found one but some of them found their soulmate but can only spend time with them for only a short period of time. are they seems happy to us or are they being happy cos what they asked for is being granted?

i have to think about this. do i seems happy or am i just being happy?

life is never fair