Happy Birthday Mr Past

In few minutes time, we will be in 14th of July 2011 so before today ends, i wanna wish Mr Past a very happy birthday...i hope that he celebrate it with his loved ones and have a very good day....

This year had been my 5th year sending birthday wishes to him through the wind and i hope that this year is gonna be the last year i wish him on his birthday...

13 July had been in my mind since the month starts but i kept on saying STOP thinking brain!! when the date passed by but today the word STOP seems to fail me...i guess its okay, feeling emotional what makes me human and i wish that this gonna be the last time i feel like this....

anyhow......

Happy Birthday Mr Past.

New year means new m.e?

In a few days more we gonna be in 2011. Did you accomplished all your 2010 new year's resolution?

As for me, every year my New Year's resolution is to have a resolution but never had I accomplished that...T_____T Hopefully 2011 I will have at least one resolution to make me feel normal(?)

Giving a thought on what's my New Year resolution gonna be...

a.l.o.n.e

I don't know what's happening in my life cos currently it seems like everyone in my life is trying to find companion. I did had conversation with my friends about this "companion" thingy. Do we actually thinks that that person likes the idea of us being there with him/her or the person actually loves us no matter how "busuk" we are?

One of the dude told me once that this particular girl says that she starting to like him but being me, I had to pull him back from the cloud 9 not cos am jealous but is it really true that she likes him where her attitude didn't show that? Can that particular person like someone when she is still thinking about her past? Am sorry, I don't called it like that particular person but I call it COMPANION cos you THINK you like him/her but do u really LIKE him/her and does that person feels the same about u or he/she is doing the same thing as u are?

On the other note,

It is hard-breaking thing when everyone seems to treat me like I don't have feelings. Why everyone can actually tell me whom I can be friends with and whom I can't where as they can still be friends with the one that I do not want them to be with?

-Am I that invincible?-

hiatus!!!

After starting this new job, my life had been a hiatus!!! this new job offered me more tasks!!!! and I had became a boring person (again saying this cos I can feel me changing to boring person.T____T)

Since this new job requires me to wake up SUPER early in the morning so I could not hang out with the group till a.m!*see,here is one of the proof that I am becoming the boring person!) There is no more lies and hang out in IKEA eating meatballs with Mrs D while telling boss that the stuff that I wanted to buy is not in IKEA.* I am sure everyone of u did tell at least ONE WHITE LIE to your boss rite???Stop giving me the angelic look!!I know what u did!)

Another proof that I can tell u that I am becoming a boring person is when I hang out with my ex colleagues *which are in advertising line* I have nothing to say *knowing me, it is IMPOSSIBLE!* all I do when hanging out with them are listening and nodding. The rest of the time, figuring out what the hell are they talking about!*damn!I miss that line!!!T_____________T*

Now when its time to shop, before this I will go to skinny jeans section but now, I will straight go to formal wear section! I know its pathetic rite??? The only thing that satisfy my shopping trip is when I buy those crazy beautiful shoes!!*drool*

Every night I pray to God *I lied AGAIN!not every night la....* to save my once hip and happening soul from the EVIL BOREDOM cos if I am really changing to a boring person, my life will be doomed!*exaggerating mode*

I do not how long more I could whine about my new job but if there's one sweet day u can't read any post about how sucks my new job is, it is the time when I had been suck into the boring life...

dear friends,

s.a.v.e m.e p.l.e.a.s.e T______________T

how i wish i can sing this song to u....

How I wish I can sing the song to you...not sing in front of you but literally sing it to u as I am not a good singer ok.T_____T

I would like to dedicate each and every words in the lyric to u one day when I can totally let u go....for now, this song is in my playlist to give me the courage to move on without u in my life....

*cough*cough*cough*

I had been sick for these past few days and its a horrible feeling!!!I hate it especially I got no voice! Currently I am sitting in the office with a notepad and every time people talk to me or ask me question, i will write down my reply on the note book.T_T

Can I have my voice back pleaseeeee????

my current life

Besides being in the emotional roller coaster,I had switched to a new boring job.It is so boring until I can die!!!wearing formal attire to work is really not my thing but what can I say,I have too..changing jobs is good for my sore wallet and for my career development(who am I kidding rite?)

This new job gives me a lot of free time.waking up at 730 every morning almost make me blind and the doggy parking lots makes me scared every single time I pick up my car.Not forgetting the formal wear that had done quite a damage to my wallet! I can list down every single thing that I dun like about my new job but to think about it again, complaining won't make the new job fun rite?T_T

The bright side is I reached home before 6 so in other words,I have some free time to go to gym!=_=" *now I do go to gym AGAIN ok* and the office is nearer to my home so I can save the petrol money.*sangaaatttt!*

I want to go for a holidayyyy!!!!pleaseeeeee!!!the longest holiday I had taken for these past 2 years was when the job switching period itu pon 5 days only!argh!plus with the emotional roller coaster am riding in,I need holiday even more!!

-am leading a boring life-

a trip to the memory lane

Some people said *i always said that to my bestie too!* time will heal the wound and I really think that it may works but NOO!!

Currently I felt regret for telling u to disappear from my life for I can't live without knowing someday u will come back to me...

I mentioned that u are not important in my life and I treated u as a passerby in my life, it were lies as u are still important in my life and I did not treat u as a passerby...u have this one special spot in my life and heart and from the facts me saying that to u, it is really heart broken!

One of my friend asked me, if u come back to me what will i do? i wanna start a new life and I wanna start it with u..

I am suffering right now by trying my best to put a brave smile at my face while facing the world feeling regret for saying that to u. Can I have u back?=(

-how I wish I have the guts to say these things to u....I am sorry but I just can't lose u-

One click that ruined her mood!

Damn! I know I should not click it! There is no one who can understand my feeling right now! All I know that I should not click it and thank to the curiosity feeling, now I feel like sh*t!!!!

I had been acting that I am okay with it but I am not!

I can't tell a single soul on how I feel about it and that sucks!!

but then, f*cked it la! Its not that other people care!!!

This is aaammmerrriiicaaannn idol *in Ryan Seacrest tone*

"I just have to watch the finale today"

That sentence had been repeating in my head for the whole day yesterday so on 6-ish pm, I drove back to home*happily skipped the gym session* just to watch the show. Personally I am a Mama Sox's fan so I wanna watch how she nailed the finale! I drove back confidently using a different route than usual just thinking I won't get stuck in the jam as usual but NOOOO!!!!, I was wrong cos I was still stuck in the jam!T_T

I managed to watch the finale and I was so impressed with Crystal!!!! especially the last song she sang..gosh, it gave me goosebumps. "It was OUTSTANDING"*quoted from Simon* was so true!!!!so KENA with her performance last night!!

BUT

sadly Crystal LOST to Lee.... Lee is the new American Idol but I think Crystal will be more famous compared to Lee. I dunno, I just have that instinct *not instinct pon, it just from the pattern. See la Adam Lambert is more famous that Kris Allen where as he just the runner up kan?*

I still adore You, Crystal!!!!!*screaming tone while pulling hair*

I love this song....*tears*

a donut that create the scare...

Yesterday I was supposed to meet up with my young boss to get his signatures since it is the "time" for every month. When I reached that place, he said he still cannot entertained me so I made my way by WALKING under the HOT SUN to Pavy to grab a quick bite. Wanted to find the bread shop that Mrs C introduced to me last Saturday but I was lost *as usual la kan....* Couldn't find the shop but I found a Donut shop. The sales person approached me:

Him: Hi ms, good afternoon. How many donut would u like?
Me: THREE *proudly show 3 fingers up in the air*
Him: Owh, u should buy 5 free 1 then. It is only RM xx.
Me: *thinking who is victim to finish it* ahhh,nevermind la. Now I change my mind, I want TWO *flashing 2 fingers*
Him: Okaayyyy...any drink?
Me: Iced Mocha please.

While enjoying that really QUICK bite, young boss texted whether I was at the lobby or not and being me such an honest person *blushing* I told him that I was at Pavy, going to meet him there in 10 minutes time so started back my WALKING JOURNEY UNDER THE HOT SUN againnnnnnnnn!!! By the time I reached there, I was sweating like a pig!!!Kept on fan myself using the envelope while waiting for young boss to sign all the cheques. *busukkkkk!!!*

On the way back, I felt something uneasy at my mouth near the lips so when I checked on the rear mirror, I saw this reddish thingy on the side of my lips!!!I was like WHAT?!! I knew that I ate something wrong already that time but I couldn't think of anything besides the donuts since it was the only solid food that I consumed that day! GOSH!!!allergic reaction!! It got worse last night while I was hanging out with Mrs D and the rest but I ignored it although it hurts and itch every time I talk or laugh *people who know me, I am a loud person so my laugh are LOUD as well*

Woke up today, the size of that thing had reduced but still there and still hurts a little bit. Crossing my fingers that that thing will dissapear by the weekend cos I got this Charity walk to attend.Yes people, I registered myself for a Charity Walk. Its for a good cause so I think I should register myself plus Lina had forced me to join and I need to help Nisa to get a certificate!

I am not sure got this much of people or not la kan...

Hopefully I do not puke during the event....nervous!!

Wish me luck guys...

the boring and lazy weekend

Last weekend*which was yesterday...sigh* I was so lazy+tired+boring by just laying in front of the TV spinal cord-less*mengular la bak kate orang melayu la kan* Had watched movies in HBO back to back like nobody business!!! I did go hang out with Nisa since she came back for summer holiday *its only a week jer pon....* I haven't met her. We did a little catch up between both of us and I went to gym at night *YES! I had register for GYM membership*


There was this one funny story happened when I finished my GYM session. I was in the lift to go the parking floor. As usual, while I am inside the lift, I will keep my eyes on the lift's button looking at the stores signboard*more of thinking about its unfair la for other shops cos they cannot put their signage next to the lift's button* so when I heard the "TING" sound, I wanted to go out la from the lift but then I was shocked at the same time the sound of "EH" came out from my mouth * I am a very expressive person ok?* cos I was at the wrong floor but I think I had made the couple who was making out in front of the lift embarrassed.=_=! The guy was blushing *he's a indian but then I can still see him blushing although it is not as obvious as a fair skin person* The awkward feeling surround the lift environment and when the lift reached B1, without hesitation, *like the speed of light* I went out from the lift without looking at the couple.. To think about it, WHY ON EARTH should I feel embarrassed pulak kan?T_T

Other than that, nothing much I've done and experienced yesterday and today in the office, I had yawned for 8 Million times!!! There are so many Satan hanging at my eyelashes!!! but I did something useful on Saturday.*ngeeeeeeeehhhhh*

After persuasion from Mrs. C and Mrs. D on Friday night, I decided to go to one of my close friend's wedding at Nilai. Gosh, the weather is "super nice" cos it was SUPER HOT!!*ketiak basah wey!!!!* but the wedding was simple and nice. For the pictures? Waiting for Mrs. D post it in FB *as usual la kan* since I don't own a camera except phone camera. Itu pon didn't snap any picture as my phone is not phone pandai kan....*sob sob sob*



till then,

*y a w n i n g*

When she doesn't wanna do anything in the office

I am so sleepy cos I followed the whole team to the welcome lunch*we had lunch at Bangkok Haus. Gosh, what a heavy lunch...T_T* for the new GM. Let me tell you about the new GM. Her face is so fierce! Its like "don't mess with me" kinda message written all over her face.*scary* Anyway I just would like to welcome her in our group. Hopefully she is not one of the people who got "Pain In As*" kinda attitude...

for illustration purpose only'

Anyway, last Saturday I went to my previous Secondary school. As usual, some of them not even participating but had created some chaos. I was angry reading particularly this one comment when we post it on FB but when I told one of my friend, he was saying just chill. It is normal to have that kind of obstacles so I ignored it but still when think about it, it make me angry because reasons being:

1. Not only you can't come but then you are so RUDE!
2. You are not that IMPORTANT to us so if you can't come, you don't have to post such a rude comment.
3. My god, you are not freaking Prime Minister, and WHY ON EARTH we have to give you 2 months notice earlier compared to the rest????
last but not least,
4. BUZZ OFF!!!IF YOU ARE NOT PLANNING TO JOIN, THERE ARE SOME OTHER PEOPLE WHO CAN JOIN LA WEY!!!

but luckily everything went smoothly.... I hope that next event we can do much more better and hopefully other than us can join as well.=D

p/s: I thought I lost my office keys but then lucky it was with one of them.phewww!

Another Love song

I was driving on my way to office when I heard this song aired in the radio....I was humming to the song but then at that time I couldn't remember the title of the song so thanks to the technology, I posted my curiosity on Facebook and got my answer!!!thanks guys!!!hehe.

a source of inspiration

I would like to share with you about this one of the talented blogger that had make me followed his blog religiously... I would say the way he writes or the most accurate word, illustrate his stories is so creative. Even some of his posts, without fail put a smile on my face each time when I read it. FYI, I am not a stalker but then u can click on HIS page and you will understand what I am saying here.*hehe* I am so envy to those people who can draw things very well since I have ZERO talent in drawing...*sigh*



He is so talented rght.....T_T

p/s: If you are reading, I am not a stalker....I am just admiring your talent.*Sounded like a stalker!!! but am not!!*

For you, a thousand times over....

I went to see Ms J this afternoon but she was moody cos not enough sleep I guess. Same goes to her Auntie, felt asleep when I reached there...sigh. I wish I can sleep too but then I have to go to office!!*grrr!!!!*

Anyway...

I had just finished reading The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini. I read in few blogs commenting about this book so it had made my heart reach for the book every time I see it in the book store. It was only a feeling towards the book until Lina told me that she never been to Kinokuniya and from there I saw the book again!!!*its like match made in heaven....*_*hehe!* When I bought that book, for the first time in my life!! I set the alarm off at Kinokuniya!!! but when I checked there was nothing that can set the alarm off except for the book BUT the next day when I went into one of the shop in mall, AGAIN!!! I set the alarm off!!! I didn't bring along the book so until now I did not know what was/is that inside my bag that had set the alarm off but then I was lucky enough that the shop keeper to help me turn off the "IT"*since I had no idea what was that.....melalut dah pulak aku nie.......*

Anyhow, the writer really know how to make the reader GLUED to his creation!!! You should read it.... This story had been adapted into a movie and one fine day, I hope I can watch it but I won't put high hope in the movie since usually adaptation movies from book sucks....=.= Click HERE to know more about the book=D

*Book cover taken from Google Image*

Miss J is here!!!!!!!!!!!

Picture taken from her auntie's FB

Miss J is at her Auntie's house!!!Couldn't wait to pay a visit to her!!! Isn't she adorable?

Don't change

a very meaningful song but for me, it such a turn off to look at the singer's face=(

Movies that I had watched recently.

*taken from Google Image*

I watched this movie at one of my friend's house. It was so tempting yet motivated movie. It makes me wanna cook and blog about it at the same time although I am a very bad cook!*people around me knows the fact.I only know how to bake...sigh* If you wanna know more about this movie, here is the synopsis. DO NOT CLICK IF YOU DO NOT WANNA KNOW ABOUT THE STORYLINE!*hehe*

*taken from Google Image*

Another inspiring movie that I had watched recently. All I can say, I loved Sandra Bullock wardrobes in the movie*ahahaha* and I love how the movie flow. Its amazing how a stranger can help another stranger and owh how I love the Gucci=D Click HERE if you wanna know about the movie before watching it.

*taken from Google Image*

And call me slow cos I just watched this movie last night at my friend's house. I heard a lot of people giving a good review about this movie and currently they are showing IP MAN 2 in the cinema so to avoid being clueless in the cinema, I watched it last night. My comment about this movie? TWO THUMBS UP!!! Gosh!! I love the lady who acted as the wife, she is super cool! I wonder how many takes they have to take in order for her to give that kind of expression.... For those who like me, I think you should watch the first one before watching the sequel. Seriously it worth the time spent to watch the movie=D

p/s: At first I didn't know that the title of that movie was a person name since I am not good with chinese language.*=.= so I kept on thinking the movie must be an IT related movie cos I had made an assumption IP- Internet Protocol but then in chinese language but I was wrong....aaaaaaaaa!

Movies that I am planning to watch:

PAPADOM

IP MAN 2

Till then,

t a t a

Little Miss J

Before I post another movie review, I would like to tell you a story of Little Miss J. This Little Miss J that I am about to tell you has nothing to do with Miss J from America's Next Top Model ya...She is more interesting than that Miss J.

From what I heard, when little Miss J was still a baby, she already loved to talk and until today, she still loves to talk. You can hear her mumbling and you won't understand a single word she says but then you still do wanna talk to her...She will give you a beautiful and bright smile that can brighten the whole room.

I used to listen to stories about her going shopping with her mom, grandma and auntie, she can actually stop a stranger and the stranger will starts admiring her. Oh no, she is not super hero. It is just her power being an adorable BABY!!!!

So my dear friends, I would like to introduce to you my new little friend which I would like to call her LITTLE MISS J!

Hi everyone!!!!!

Isn't she adorable?????=)