happy birthday bestie!

012363xxxx(09:45:10am 01/07/09)-every year i'm trying my best 2b d 1st but failed miserably...Happy birthday babe...i luv you.
012989xxxx(09:47:10am 01/07/09)-hahaha thanks. this year even worse!but i still luv u.

This morning I just realised today is my bestie's birthday and guess what I forgot to wish her!*bad friend!sigh!* Happy Birthday babe!!

Dear bestie,

I am so glad to be your friend. you indeed is a very good friend...you were there most of the time when i needed someone and lend your shoulder to cry on. we had our own laughter and tears. although we are not always together all the time but i feel you so close to me. you have your own place in my heart and life. again, i am so glad to be your best friend and i am really sorry for hurting you. it was not my intention to hurt you and i'm really sorry for that...happy birthday babe...may this year brings more laughter compared to tears. i love you babe!!

yours truly,

your best friend.

&*^$&*^

Thursday-180609

felt very cold in the office. were skyping and yming lina and put telling them gonna fall sick cos the whole body was burning but hands were cold as ice plus got tummy ache... tried to go toilet but encik taik*poop* didn't come out.

7pm

Drove back home feeling super sick.tummy really hurt,reached home, Agnes was at home. She didn't go to work that day. Went to clinic with her and mama. Have to wait for 1 1/2 hour cos the clinic was FULL of SICK PEOPLE!*why la I have to be sick when the clinic is full?*
While waiting for the doctor, slept in the car cos tummy hurt badly. Agnes woke me up when it was my turn and had the doctor examined me. Doctor told me that my Gall Bladder got irritation so asked me to diet. SCARYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

Today-220609

My tummy ok a bit. eyes still yellowish. Doc told me that I have to go meet him again if eyes still yellowish and still got tummy ache. Lazy to go. Let it be first. If it getting more serious like last Thursday, then I'm gonna pay him a visit.=)


O U C H

Boring day

It is a boring day cos I don't have anything to do besides playing my Restaurant City in Facebook and try to take out the corn at my right palm. I got 3 corns*according to my officemate,it is corn* ya at my right palm. What is the cause of this irritating and annoying hard skin? Feeling embarrassed to shake hand with people,scared that particular person can feel the hard skin!*tak nak la,maluuuu!*

I'm trying so hard to take out this annoying thing on my palm by using the corn remover*scholl* that is meant for foot since I could not find the one that meant for palm/hand.Am I weird cos usually people get it on the foot not the hand?I am not using my hand to walk but how can I get it?

It all started on a very bright and sunny day....

Went to help out one of my friend do gardening. It was my first time and I didn't know that I had to dig up a hole and put black soil to replace the existing soil. The existing soil cannot be used to plant the flowers so had to throw it away.OMG!!!the existing soil were so hard*seriously, felt like digging cement* to dig plus it got red ants that bite your leg!!T_T I was so determine to dig up the ground until when I finished digging the ground, I noticed that my hand got blisters!!

and now as of TODAY!!

the blisters had harden and it is at my right palm. the skin is harden now.damn!!wanted to show it here but no camera.haish!

By the way, while i'm composing this post, I did some reseach and thanks to Mr GOOGLE, I think this thing on my right palm is not corn la but Calluses which is similar like corn but its not painful. After I did some comparison, I think it is CALLUSES since it is not painful,just some hard skin. Gonna go to gurdian or watson to buy medication to get rid of this thing!

alone

Can I be alone?

Living alone without any friends?

Eat alone without workmates?

Today I felt like a stranger in someone's life cos I do not know what is going on with the life. How I wish I can make a name list and crossed out the names that I do not want to be friends with. Before this I think I can do it but as time goes,as age is catching up with my act, I don't think so I can do it anymore....Sometimes people are just annoying but I did not run away.Is it because I am scared not to have friends anymore in my life or is it because I have to be nice to them because I am scared they will talk bad behind my back?
Neither of these 2 reasons I guess.
Its because I just wanna be friends with them and didn't expect that they are weird. SH*T!

Phase 1

During the weekend, I spent my time with Put to go and find for the available locations. We went to several places and end up at Tim's place. We had this discussion with Tim and found out that the operation cost is so HIGH!!!Do not know whether we can survive for the future or not.....
Its all about Budgetting, Costing and revenue...


Tired of thinking

seem happy and being happy is never the same

seems happy and being happy are 2 different things. you can always seems happy in front of everyone around you but to be happy is difficult as yourself is the only one that know that you are being happy and not seems happy.

seems happy is when you laugh and smile with your friends or stranger that you just met but ask yourself a question whether you are being happy to hang out with the crowd?

everyone can see that you seems happy with your loved one but do they know that you are really happy to be surrounded by your loved ones?

is everyone has the same opportunity to find their other half cos sometimes they will never found one but some of them found their soulmate but can only spend time with them for only a short period of time. are they seems happy to us or are they being happy cos what they asked for is being granted?

i have to think about this. do i seems happy or am i just being happy?

life is never fair

this is dedicated for weirdo

As mentioned in the title, this is meant for the weirdos. Seriously I don't get it where the hell they come from.

Yesterday was really hell of a day for me. Had a fight with this one weirdo. He asked questions that I can't answered cos it is about my best friend and I know what kind of person he is. What makes me angry cos he's been thinking that I label him as my "property".What the f*ck is that wey? He even accused me for being naive and asked me which century I came from?!!argh!!The most mind blowing anger was that he asked me whether I have the intention to control his and my best friend's life?*double f*ck*

I told them*Put,Nisa and Lina* Put and Lina were laughing at me as they said something that shouldn't be post it here and as for Nisa, being Nisa she gave some opinion that are nice to hear plus I think that what she said is true. Put and Nisa were suprised when I told them I don't share any personal story with him. I don't see the point why I must share my personal stories with him as we are not that close plus I wanna limit myself so that I won't fall for him. I am not into any commitment right now cos I have so much to think!*plus i don't do commitment for the time being cos I am scared of being attached to someone or something*

Why this kind of man still exists and why am I so bothered by his words?I think its because he had gone beyond the limit plus it involved my best friend! Its not like I'm jealous cos he asked about my best friend but it is because I know where this "thing" gonna end! Its not like I have any commitment towards him so dude, you can go f*ck yourself!

p i s s e d !

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Taken from here

A good friend is honest and trustworthy

A good friend lets you be yourself and doesn’t try to change you or change to be liked by you

A good friend shows they care

A good friend never would let you do something that would hurt you

A good friend calls you just to say hi or see how you are

A good friend is genuinely interested and involved in your life

A good friend can tell if you’re happy or not happy without you saying a word

A good friend sticks with you through the terrible-horrible parts of life

A good friend makes time for you even if they don’t have a lot of time

A good friend has enough dirt on you to blackmail you for life - but keeps his or her mouth shut

A good friend can forgive you when you make a mistake or screw up

A good friend never takes more from you than they can give back

A good friend is respectful towards you and every other person in your life, whether they like them or not